|Already to go home from the hospital 10/2009|
For the past week I have been avoiding the fact that Little Spooner is turning 4 this weekend. Mostly because I cannot even believe it. When someone asked me at the park how old she was and the words "she will be 4 this weekend" escaped my lips, my heart broke inside. I mean, just yesterday we were packing her up into her seat that seemed 10x too big for her to leave the hospital. Never in my life could I have imagined then, the little girl she would be now. Excuse me while I gush...
To look at her now, I can hardly even grasp how much she has grown. I am pretty sure she has been twirling and dancing since she could walk. With both parents being pretty athletic in their younger days, of course we would be blessed with a ballerina. Watching her dance just brings so much joy to all of us. She is the light in all of our lives.
It is common knowledge that I once made the comment that "babies are not even fun until they are 2"... That comment was made before she was born. I was never a "baby person" before I had my own. I was never dying to hold another persons baby. I told my mom at one point I never wanted to get married or have kids, and I was going to just be "Cool Aunt Jess". There are days now though that my favorite time is in the morning when I wake up and she has "sneaked" into my bed, and she is quiet and so peaceful and I can just hold her.
I couldn't even begin to imagine my life without her.
|3 years old- I wish I could have froze this moment in time|
Little Spooner is truly her own person. She is loving, caring, smart, stubborn (not sure where she gets that attribute), hilarious, not to mention beautiful. When I see her, I see everything I have ever hoped for her to be (easy Bette). I would normally say something about how I cannot wait to see how she changes over the next 4 years...and while I can't wait, I hope and pray it doesn't go as fast as the past 4 years have. I know that in 4 more years she really won't be a "little" girl anymore (at least in her eyes she won't). As the birthday weekend commences, I am sure I will be a basket case for the next few days. Then it will be over, and I will be fine until this time again next year when she turns 5...- Mommy Spooner