Baby Blues

I'm not sure where this post is coming from. I think I'm feeling a little sad this morning. Little Spooner had her first "big girl" swim lesson this morning. At first it felt good because she kept saying she wanted mommy in the water with her, but that was in the car. Once we got there and she saw all the other kids and her previous teacher Miss Ruth, she was gone, and didn't want me anymore.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about how grown up Little Spooner is getting. This afternoon, and over the course of the next week, her Dad and I will be checking out multiple pre-schools for this fall. It's seems like the natural progression, but when I uttered "she will be 4 in September" on the phone, I was in complete disbelief. Where has all that time gone? I also can't help but think about "my plan" for my life. According to "my plan" I would have had another baby by now...

Thank God that "his plan" for my life supersedes any plan that I might have made, I can't even imagine going through what I went through this past summer being pregnant, or having an infant. Every time I get sad about wanting a baby right now, which is often, I just have to keep reminding myself that His plan for my life is waay better than any plan I could come up with.

Swim lessons are over, and Little Spooner did amazing.- Mommy Spooner