Ash + Lilac

So today has been a really weird day for me... (I'm blogging, for one). I have lately found myself questioning a lot of decisions I have made in the past. Maybe not questioning decisions, but wondering "what if's".  If you would have asked me 4 years ago where I would be right now... Here, is not where I would have told you.  Granted, I knew I would still be in this geographical "area", but emotionally, physically, relation-ally (word?), never in a million years would I have thought things would have been this difficult. When I was newly divorced, I was in such an amazing place (I felt like it at least)... I mean who says that? I say that. When you are released from a toxic environment and you immediately feel like a weight is released off your shoulders, you are in an amazing place.  I was thrilled to be going to church again, and I had the support of my amazing family and friends. I also had brown hair... (hmmm...).  I felt unstoppable. I went back to sc